I cherish him

One of the hardest things that I have had to come to accept this year is visitation.  

As many of you know, the Dood's dad and I were divorced earlier in 2013. 

See I have been blessed though, we are still very good friends and his new girlfriend is an absolute doll.  Honestly. Like we could be legit friends.

Anyway, I think I really took for granted the fact that I never had to be without the Dood.  

He would be in his bed every night and I would get to cuddle him every morning.

I guess, I really didn't cherish each moment with him because I knew that I had him each moment. 

Since the divorce it has become more and more obvious to me just how much I cherish him being around.  My life is so quiet when he is at his dad's.  I long more in the couple of hours or days that he is gone just to go hug him or kiss him or smell his stinky little boy hair.  

I miss him.  Bad. 

When the Dood was little, I worked A LOT.  I volunteered.  I wasn't there as much as I could have been. 

Now, K and I make it a mission to spend quality time with him when he is with us.  We play video games with him, we eat as a family, we play board games, we go on adventures.  It is so important to make all our time together count.  As easy as it is to get caught up in the hustle and bustle of everyday.  We put forth the effort to make sure that he still knows he is number one.

And on the nights and weekends he is getting to spend time with his dad, I know he is having fun.  He has a great daddy and his dad's girlfriend has a little boy the same age that he just adores, so I don't have to worry about anything.  Just missing him.  A  LOT. 

XOXO

Pearl